Saturday, February 26, 2011

I'm Back!

Hi, all!  I'm sorry I've been absent for a few days.  I had  some depression going on.  I was blue - just down in general and tired all week (there might have been some monthly hormones involved) and I wound up in What-The-Hellville in terms of my eating and exercising before I knew it.  And we had (and are having) really cold weather this week - not typical for this neck of the woods - and all I wanted to do was curl up in a blanket on the couch and stay warm.  Salty snacks are my downfall at these times.  And after (or with) a couple of glasses of wine?  Yeah, the control went out the window for a while.

I think what also nudged me over the edge was how I felt in dance class on Tuesday.  I decided to wear a hip belt that I haven't worn in a while.  It went around my hips just fine, but I just couldn't settle on a way to wear it in a way that didn't make me feel huge.  And since I am one of the assistants on Tuesdays, I couldn't exactly hide in the back of the room...  And it didn't help that the Teacher kept staring at my hips - totally made me feel even more fat. and even more self-conscious about it. Yes, people are supposed to look at my hips when I'm belly dancing, especially when I'm in front of a class as a teacher, but it just felt like she was looking at my rolls of fat instead of what my hips were doing at the time.  (To be fair, she was talking with/listening to another assistant at the time, and might have just been zoning out and my hips were an easy resting spot for her eyes, but that didn't change how I felt at the time...)    

And then on Wednesday, the Hubster mentioned something that hit me.  He said that one of his closest friends (a man I respect a great deal) had told him that he could tell I'd lost a lot of weight!  It was the right comment at the right time to kick me in the ass and realize that I don't want to stay in What-The-Hellville.  I don't want to have people notice my progress and then see me backslide.  Again.  Just another fat person with no willpower or self control.  I don't want to do that again and be disgusted with myself - AGAIN!!!  I really don't like being that person!!!  And I won't be that person!  Not again. 

So I got back on track on Thursday.  And then I got on the scale yesterday morning, bracing myself for impact -  and somehow I hadn't done as much damage as I should have!  I was up, yes, but only by half a pound.  I must not have gone as out of control as it felt like I had - but I'm so glad I got the jolt I needed before it went any further. 

So - on to the weekend.  We're Gaming tonight, and I've got my gum in my purse and some strength in my spine.  I'm going to hold on to my newly rediscovered will and just focus on have fun interacting with my friends, rather than indulging in the snacks. 

Have a good weekend, all -- stay strong!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Quick Check In

Was doing fine for most of the day, but then we went out for Mexican after doing some furniture shopping. (Finally!)  I did order Fajitas instead of my usual combo platter, but I had more of the beans and rice than I planned on, as well as a margarita and the guacamole (mmmm, avocado...)  No exercise, but I did  get in 104 oz. water, so at least I did that much right today.

My legs were sore from yesterday, but not as bad as it could've been.  I think the amount of water I'm taking in has helped with that as well.  Yay!

I'm going to keep it short so I can get to bed.  I need to get better about going to bed at a reasonable time...  I know, I know - you've heard it before...   ;}

G'night, all!

Monday, February 21, 2011

*Insert Catchy Title Here*

Had a good weekend - didn't do much tracking of calories, but I made mostly decent choices.  And I didn't drink anywhere near as much water on Friday, and I could definitely tell that I've gotten used to drinking more of it - I was definitely thirsty Friday night, and my lips were dry.  Surprised me!

Today (Sunday) I had a performance with my troupe, which was a lot of fun,  AND before that, I went out out wogging* for the first time in a long time.  I was out for 30 minutes and jogged for about 15 of those!   (NOT straight - I'm nowhere near there, yet!  I alternated about 5 min. walking with 5 min. jogging.)  And my wind was better than I 'd thought it would be, and my feet didn't hurt afterwards, either - yay!  Felt great!  I just hope I didn't overdo it TOO much and wind up in pain tomorrow or Tuesday...  I've done that a few times. Not fun.  But it really felt good to be outside and moving!  I'd forgotten that I really enjoy jogging -- once I'm doing it...   I really have to remember that in the mornings when I've planned on getting up before work to exercise but the warmth and comfort of the bed is far too seductive to resist.  Maybe that will help motivate me to actually drag myself out of bed and do it...

*Wogging - alternating between walking and jogging

Have a great Monday and good week, all!

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Friday Weigh In

Well, I was right -  I'm up 3 pounds for the week.  Not too surprising, and I know I'll be getting them back off soon enough.  I just didn't realize I had at least 3 pounds worth of CRAP in me!  (At least I'm not full of it... although I'm sure some people would disagree with me about that!)

I did measure myself, and I've lost about half a pound from all over since the last time I measured, so that helped assuage the disappointment of the scale - yay, me!

Have a good weekend, all - I'm going to relax and enjoy the rest of my evening.  I've got plans to get on the elliptical or do a video tomorrow, and then I have a performance on Sunday.  It should be a good weekend!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Pardon Me, Was My Cheekbone Showing?

Or was that just a trick of the lighting?  And I swear I caught sight of indentations in my sides yesterday at work, which leads to believe that my WAIST actually made a rare appearance!  Alas, I fear the scale will give me the finger prove uncooperative tomorrow morning.  (It's been giving me hints throughout the week...) So I'll definitely be pulling out the measuring tape tomorrow morning as well.

I've been trying to keep in mind the circumstances that led up to my dramatic drop last week, so I could keep from being disappointed if I had a gain this week.  I'm trying!  It was just SO exiting to see, and it made me feel so good about my progress.  *Sigh...*  Not that I'm not making progress -- I know I am, I just...  have to remember that there's more to getting healthy than just the number on the scale.  So we'll see what tomorrow brings.

I took in 1316 calories and 136 oz. fluid, and danced for about an hour and 40 minutes between the two classes tonight, and now it's time for bed.  G'night, all!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Good day!

I wound up having a pretty good day today, although part of my plan was to get up and exercise before work -- well, that didn't happen.  I just didn't want to get out of bed and face the day...   :P

And it was snowing this morning!  Alas, by the time I went in to work there was only some left on the lawns.  Good for driving, sad for my inner child.  :(

I came home early so the Hubster could take the car - he had an appointment, and we only have one car. He did invite me to come with him and then said go to our favorite Mexican place for dinner (he suggested I could get the fajitas, which would be a decent selection if I stick with just the meat and veggies) but I had been looking forward to having the house to myself for a little while.  So I did Phase 2 of the 30 Day Shred, AND got on the Elliptical for 48 minutes.  So it was a good day! 

I took in 1302 calories and 168 oz. fluid today, as well as my usual coffee.  Yah, I know that's a lot of fluid - felt like I was floating away!

Okay, gotta go to bed now.  G'night, all! 

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Toast!

The Hubster has some toast going to go with his dinner, and it smells so goooood...  And I do love bread...  But I've already had my dinner, so I'm resisting. 

*Sigh...*  For some reason, I've got more hunger going on this week than I did last week...   My calories are about the same this week as they were last week about this time.  I wonder if it was just the stress I was dealing with at work that made the difference (although that didn't really hit until Wednesday) or if what I ate over the weekend primed my stomach to want more than I've been giving it recently.  I've been drinking plenty of water, so I know it's not thirst!

I'm just hoping that I'm able to keep that 5 lbs from last week off.  I have to admit that I sneak on to the scale quite a bit in between my Friday weigh-ins (yes, probably quite a bit more than I should) and I did see a gain from the weekend that I'm trying to erase.  *grimace*

Any way.  I took in 1288 calories today, and 136 oz. water, not to mention my usual coffee.  And it only felt like about an hour's worth of dancing between the two classes tonight.  And I'd better take myself to bed now.

G'night, all!

(Edited to add a title, even though it's not an exciting one)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Happy Healthy Valentine's Day!

After much anticipation (I received it on Friday) I opened my package from Kenz and Janna's Healthy Valentine's Exchange today, and I think it's the best Valentine I've ever received!  (Hubster and I don't really celebrate the holiday, since we usually do things for each other throughout the year...)  Thank you so much, Michelle -- I love it!  


These are some really cool vanilla scented soap petals!  I can totally imagine sprinkling these in to a bath and luxuriating:


And this beautiful, hand decorated and painted box - purples, greens and blues, with sparkles!  How cool is this?!

And inside, I found this very cute pin:


...these really neat soaps (I think they're hand-made as well, and I love the color!)...


...this beautiful necklace and ring...



 ...and this fantastic barrette!  This picture doesn't do justice to the blues and purples in the flower - I love it, and I'll probably wind up wearing it to dance class tomorrow!




Thank you again, Michelle -- I can definitely tell you love this holiday!  And I really think I got the better end of this exchange...!

Quick Monday recap: 1235 calories and 126 oz. water in, with dancing at rehearsal - not too much sweating, but lots of arm work...  I didn't do THAT bad over the weekend, but I didn't do that well, either  -- it's good to be back on track!




Saturday, February 12, 2011

Loss!!!

I saw a VERY exciting number on the scale this morning! Although it is almost probable that there will be a gain next week to make up for it.  I mean, of COURSE  I'll try to make sure that doesn't happen, but... Well.  You see, this loss was brought to you by...  an Empty Colon! *Applause*  And now a word from our sponsor!  (Okay, maybe not...) 

And now, without further ado (or buildup) here's what I saw on the scale this morning:

-5

Yes, a 5 pound loss!  In a week!!!  (Can you see why I've been adding all the qualifiers?)  That's a HUGE number for me, and it's highly unusual. I mean, yes, I am doing some things differently this time around, especially all the water (and the blogging, which is turning in to a great tool), but I do think the loss is mostly due to all my intestinal issues this week.  :P  I am going to post it and put it on my tickers, though, because it was what I saw on the scale this morning, but you know I have to keep my feet are nailed to the ground.  That way I won't wind up sorely disappointed next week. 

From previous weight-loss attempts, a 2 pound loss in a week would make for a GREAT week's loss!  So this 5 pound drop actually feels kind of weird, because it's so unusual...  I'm just going to have to wait until next week to see where I really am, weight-wise. 

Now, just to give it feet-nailed-to-the-ground perspective, I wound up with a reality check last night.  For kicks and giggles, I tried on a costume piece that was only a bit snug the last time I wore it (which was a while ago) aaaaand I'm not even close to being able to button it up again yet.  *Sigh...*  Still a long way to go.

And now, on to the weekend.  Finally!!! 

I've got a rehearsal tomorrow (my troupe has a performance on the 20th) and then the Hubster and I are going out to a VERY nice dinner tomorrow night with a couple of very good friends.  It will be expensive, it will be yummy, and it will be a great evening.  My plan is to go to the rec center after rehearsal to use an  exercise machine or two so I'll  be able to relax and really enjoy tomorrow night. And then I will focus on SAVORING whatever it is I order tomorrow night.  And I won't hesitate to ask for a take-home box when I feel I'm full.

Have a great weekend, everyone!  Relax, rest, and enjoy!   :D

Friday, February 11, 2011

Appetite Suppressants

Two highly effective ones?  Having intestinal issues, and being in the middle of a shit storm at work.  And dealing with both of them at the same time?  Yah.  That's been my day today.

And I couldn't stay home from dance classes to relax and recover tonight, seeing as how I am the teacher and all...  They were fun classes, and they turned my mood around, but I felt (and looked) pale by the end of both of them.  I'm really looking forward to the weekend...

I took in 1286 calories and 136 oz. water, in addition to my usual coffee.  Amd I think I'll actually get some sleep tonight.  That is, as long as I don't get distracted on my way to bed...  (Tip o' the hat towards Mrs. D)

G'night all!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Soft Pretzels...

*drool...*

I just thought that might get your attention.  ;D  Hubster and I are watching our recording of Top Chef*, and they mentioned soft pretzels, so we started talking about how much we love them...  *sigh.*  Boy is it a good thing that we don't know of anywhere close by  where we can get them quickly and easily...!

*I'd call it self torture if I had more time do a lot of cooking.  But since I don't, I'll just call it food porn...


Hubster had a routine follow-up PET scan and MRI today.  I'm expecting it to be clean, and it's not too worrisome since the last two scans have been clean, but it's another reminder that the chance still lurks that IT will come back for a third time.  Very small chance, but that's what we thought when we conquered it for the first time.  That and a frustrating day at work (and I'm not looking forward to tomorrow...) made for a STRONG temptation to dive in to a large glass of wine or two.  But I've been keeping my progress in mind, and the fact that I don't want to start backsliding right after hitting my last goal, and I've been good today.  Except for skipping the exercise I was planning on tonight.

Decent day food- and water-wise today.  Took in 1330 calories, and about 116 oz. water, as well as my usual coffee. Now to bed and to get some sleep, and hopefully tomorrow will turn out okay.

G'night, all!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Sleep...?

I was just wiped out today.  Didn't get to bed at a decent time last night (Quiet, you there in the corner - I heard that "what else is new?"!) so I was tired all day.  And it was a long day at work, so I wound up coming home and not going to my dance classes tonight -- I just didn't have the energy.   (And I was able to get a bit of cuddle time in with the Hubster as well, so it was a very nice, relaxing evening.)  I'll get on the elliptical or something tomorrow to make up for getting no exercise today.

 I took in 1154 calories today, and 112 oz. water, as well as my usual coffee. And now I am going to sign off and go to bed so I can try to chase down and catch this mythical "good night's sleep" people seem to be so fond of.  So in other words, I'm going unicorn hunting...  :P

G'night, all!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Weekend Recap, and Decent Monday

I ate... okay over the weekend.  Not really bad, but I could've definitely done better - it was the salty snacks that really did me in, especially while Gaming on Saturday.  There were Raisinettes and Whoppers there, which are among the better choices for sweets, and they don't usually tempt me.  Although I did eat more Whoppers than I probably should have...  And I did have the gum I brought with me to prevent temptation -- it helped quite a bit, but I was reminded of why I stopped chewing it on a regular basis. 

And the hostess had gotten some Bacon Popcorn to try, for the novelty factor -- yes, Bacon Popcorn.  And you know what?  It's pretty darn tasty!  And I think I saw that it's only 40 calories for one cup!  Not sure about other nutritional info, and I'm sure the sodium content is through the roof...  I can definitely see it as an occasional snack!  :D

Sunday continued with the salty snack theme.  We stayed home for the Super Bowl and the Hubster didn't get out to get the snacks he had wanted (which was something of a blessing, actually...) so the temptations on hand were Sundried Tomato and Basil Wheat Thins, as well as both raw and Smokehouse Almonds.  Again, not awful snacks, but I had a lot more of them than I should have.  That and the rest of the Teriyaki for dinner made for a sodium fun-fest of a weekend!  *eyeroll at self*

Today turned out better -- back on track.  I took in 1483 calories, and 120 oz. water, as well as my usual coffee.  I had rehearsal (gentle dancing for about a total of 40 minutes) and then I got home and did Level 1 of the 30 Day Shred DVD for the first time.  I was pink-faced and a sweaty after the 25 minute workout was done, but after the No More Trouble Zones DVD kicked my ass last week, this one (at least at level 1) wasn't too bad.  The previews of levels 2 and 3 (especially 3) look like they will be more of a challenge, for sure, though...

Time for bed -- G'night, all!

 

Friday, February 4, 2011

GOOOOOOOOAALLL!!!!!

I lost 1.5 pounds this week, which brings me exactly to meeting my short-term goal!  11 (official) pounds total shimmied away so far!  Yaaay!!!

I'm going to set my next short term goal to 15 lbs (after enjoying seeing it at the end point for a few minutes) so that by the time I hit my next short term goal, I will have lost 25!  Okay, 26, but if I aim for another 15 instead of 14 I will have the psychological victory of reaching another 5-lb. mark on the scale, rather than being one-off.  *Shrug*  Whatever works!  :}

I'm looking forward to our next Gaming afternoon tomorrow - it's always a lot of fun!  I got a pack of gum today, and it's already in my purse, ready to go, so hopefully the snacking situation won't be such a challenge.  Here's hoping!  I'm going to try to get in some exercise in the morning, but I don't know if I'll actually get to it.  Aunt Flo came a-visiting today, and she frequently brings her bastard daughter Mig Raine with her.  And she can be a REAL bitch...  :P 

I did good on my water today - 110 oz, in addition to half of my usual coffee.  I had added some sugar-free caramel syrup in celebration of it being Friday, and I wound up putting too much in -- Bleah.  Couldn't drink it all, but I still was tired and wanted more caffeine, so I got myself a 16-oz. Soy mocha with an extra shot of espresso.  Definitely made up for the bad cup!  :D  I didn't count calories this evening, but dinner was Teriyaki, and I had a lot left over, so I feel pretty good about the day, food-wise. 

Time to do a little catching-up on everyone else's blogs, and enjoy the fire my Honey is building.  G'Night all, and have a good weekend!

Quick Check-In

Long day today....  Fun show last night!  Some day I'll post a vid of me dancing - something I haven't done yet, Ninja.  ;)  Fat ladies singing have NOTHING on this fat lady dancing!!  ;}

Took in 1451 calories and 136 oz. fluid (including Gatorade G2; not including coffee) and did some good dancing in my classes tonight. 

Weigh-in tomorrow - we'll see what happens...! 

G'night, all!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Happy First of February!

Today was a pretty good day, although I didn't move as much as I wanted to, even with 2 dance classes!  The beginning class was about what I expected, activity-wise, but in the second class, I didn't do anywhere near as much dancing as I expected/wanted to, due to... well, due to me standing around and talking, instead of dancing.  *blush...*  Well, a really close friend I haven't seen in a LONG time came to class, so I was catching up with her for a bit, and then I wound up talking with my brother and sister-in-law for a while -- I called to ask them a question and then we had to spend some time catching up. (I love them dearly, but I don't really keep up with them or talk with them anywhere near enough.) And then all of a sudden, class was almost over.  *Sigh...*  Some days are like that.  Um...  I got a good workout of my cheeks and jaw from smiling and talking so much -- does that count...?

And I did it -- I bit the bullet. I went ahead and signed up for the Bike Ride I mentioned here... wow, that was almost a month ago!  I've obviously been considering it for a while...  I decided to go for the 55-mile start, so I'm not overreaching.  I'm going to have to build up my bike-butt!  And this will probably also give me incentive to finally figure a plan to bike to work - and then actually do it!  Once we get further in to Spring, and have more light in the day...  :} 

I took in 1389 calories and 113 oz. water, in addition to my usual coffee today.

Okay, I need to scooch off to bed.  I've got a performance tomorrow night (all right, technically "tonight"), so I'm not sure if I'll be checking in tomorrow later today or not.  Have a great day - stay safe and warm everyone, especially if you're in an area that is getting all that snow!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

The Bra Must Go!

Why do bra-makers automatically assume that ladies who are generously endowed PREFER to have their bosoms made less of?!

Wearing this bra for the first time today, I realized that I don’t like how it makes my bust look.  It’s plenty comfortable (which can be hard to find at my size) but it makes me look like I’m about 2 cup sizes smaller than I really am, and it isn’t even labeled a “minimizer!”  Now before you say anything, the reason I can get away with such large bresticles is that the rest of my body is “proportionately” large, so they don’t look TOO outrageously huge.  (Thank you, Mom and Dad, for the good genes...) This bra manages to camouflage the girls so instead of looking proportional, I just look like a standard pear. UNLIKE!  I want to go back to my usual, which is a pear with a pair of cherries at the top.   I know, I should’ve taken more time when I was picking it out, but it really is comfortable, and I thought it would look better under my clothes then it does.  So the bra must go. Back.  It’s a good thing I still have the receipt and tags.  *sigh…*  I hate bra shopping!!!!


Today was a pretty good day, actually...  I took in 1318 calories and about 128 oz. H20 (in addition to my usual coffee).  I also had rehearsal (not too intense) for about an hour, and after I got home, I decided to get on the Eliptical for 48 minutes.  It felt great!  Boy was I dripping, and red-faced.  :D


Okay - time for me to go to bed.  G'Night, all - stay strong!

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